So I’ve moved all my stuff back to my parents from my flat these past two weeks because my tenancy is up. I’m due to move into a flat in september with two of my girl friends, but I’m starting to really regret that decision. Sine I’ve been home I’ve been reevaluating my situation and realised just how much better off I’d be if I stayed at my parents for my remaining two years of uni (including being able to buy myself a car). Unfortunately if I stay at my parents I’ll be letting down my two girl friends who are depending on me moving in with them. That’s something I just can’t do. I’ve already lost enough friends this year, and I don’t need to loose anymore. But I’m just scared because the one thing that made me hate uni this past year was money and the poor situation I was in. I’m the sort of person that gets stressed out by money and living off of £1 for two weeks at a time is not something I want to go back to. The flat we’re moving into needs completely sanitising and steam cleaning as it’s grim and it needs decorating. It’s never going to be as nice as my parents home. There’s going to be times like there have been this year where I’ve felt totally alone (because that happens when you live in your own place), I’ve been so broke I haven’t even been able to buy a pint of milk… and I don’t think I’m going to enjoy it. But I can’t let them down. I have a feeling this is going to be a tough year, and after the year I just had I really don’t need it. But I do need my friends. The only way you learn to make the right decision is by going through the wrong ones. I made my choice and promises and I can’t back out now. Won’t make the same choice in my third year! I really have had a rubbish two days. I guess I just have to be thankful for everything and everyone I do have and realise that university was supposed to be a learning curve.. and that learning curve isn’t always good.. it’s about the good and the bad.
Atleast I’m getting an education and I’m alive :). That’s better than nothing!