it will be 8 months since you never existed. 8 months since I realised I was loosing you and 8 months since I’ve had this empty feeling that never goes away… every time I see another of what you might have been… it hits me. For the past 4 days this has been looming over me and in another 4 months it’ll be a year. I’ve come to realise that I don’t think that emptiness will ever go until the day I’m allowed to fill it. Even then I’ll never be able to forget that you nearly were a part of my life and a part of me.
I just hope it makes me better, I hope I do my job in life better because I never had you, so I’ll do better when I have another in my life like you.